Thursday, September 09, 2004

One of Us

For some reason, I'm feeling off tonight. Liz made it through the first 8 minutes of Dawn of the Dead before she'd had enough (I gave her the option to opt out of watching). I dicked around with Ninja Gaiden, I played a little Second Life, I feel like I could tear a Buick apart with my bare hands, and although I know I need to go to sleep early, I sense an insomniac evening approaching.

I've let the creative side slip, too. I haven't turned out a good short story in a year or so, and since I finished the novel, I haven't turned out anything at all, unless you count the content I've been writing for the website. I sit at my work computer and stare at the screen, listlessly reading our company's message forums and putting off the other work I need to do. I finished my first PR plan but I'm scared to turn it in; it looks like a pathetic, wilted plant pressed into a mostly-white sheet of paper.

Oh, and I officially hate this Atkins diet. It makes my breath smell like a groundhog's anus most of the time, and I have to fight the urge to brush my teeth five times a day. My joints hurt, especially my knees and elbows, which is never a good sign. If I don't drink enough caffiene to make me neurotic, I go to sleep. I felt recharged after the long weekend, but I lost the feeling sometime this morning and now I feel even more run down. It doesn't help that I'm working at least 8-6 most nights, although this week has been a happy exception - I'm leaving at 5:30.

If you've read this whining nonsense all the way to the end, you deserve a prize.


Anonymous said...

perhaps it's time to consider a well-balanced diet?

Jason said...

As soon as another diet will allow me to lose weight as rapidly as this - and avoid adult-onset diabetes - sure. But I'm willing to trust my doctor, at least for a little while longer.

Anonymous said...

just so you're staying in touch w/the doc so that he/she is aware of what's happening w/you...from someone who cares about the long term effects. :)

Jason said...

I appreciate it - the Atkins stuff has to be better than a future of diabetes. :) And it really is working, I'm hoping to get to a point where I can eat a balanced meal before long.